MEbenhoe
11-01-2004, 02:10 AM
So you wanted emotion? You wanted personal details? This journal is for you. I mentioned in the last journal the stuff I was holding out for a future journal, well yeah it spilled out enough in these few days that I feel I had to post it in this one. Hope you enjoy.
Oct 29th
Today was an odd day. I had a very good day as far as the poker went, but everything else just added up to a very bad day. Its kinda hard to celebrate a good winning day when the other stuff around you is junk. The first thing is that today was my friend David’s last day here at UW La Crosse. David has recently been diagnosed with a brain tumor and needs to leave so he can get it operated on. The part that makes it even worse is that even after he has his operation, and it turns out to be the successful procedure that I know it will, he won’t be coming back to school here. Losing the closeness of a friend who you saw and hung out with every day is a hard thing, and puts it all in perspective that there are a lot more important things going on in the world that we need to pay attention to.
I have also developed a deep hatred for girls who don’t know what they want. The type of girl who leads you on to the point where you feel really close to her and that shes the one for you, and then she suddenly acts like you don’t exist. That in a nutshell is my problem with a certain girl I had been sort of seeing, but now I don’t have a clue in the world what to think of her.
As I usually get really pissed about this stuff late at night, and I have this thing about not wanting to talk about relationship problems with anyone even remotely close to the situation, Schneids being a fellow late nighter has heard a lot of my whining the last few nights. The other night he gave me possibly one of the best possible pieces of advice as to why I get so frustrated over a situation such as this, and I have to give him credit for it here. He told me that I’m a poker player, and I’m also a very mathematical and overall educated person, so when I arrive at a problem be it in real life or at the poker table I use logic to come up with the best possible move, and in poker there is always that correct move to make that can be found. However, when dealing with girls such as my good friend I spoke of, there is no logic behind what she wants or doesn’t want, and often taking the logical approach will do nothing but completely screw up the situation. This being the way things work messes with the way I think leading to this type of frustration. I’m thinking as much as I complain to him about this stuff, I may have to start hiring him out as my personal therapist.
I ended tonight by watching Big Fish with a friend of mine. I really enjoyed this movie(yeah I just saw it for the first time), but have to admit that for some reason or another some of the stuff in that movie just seemed to remind me of some of the personal junk I have going on and I just wound up ending the night feeling slightly depressed. Ahh well can’t win em all.
Anyways on to the actual poker playing. I played 3 sessions of 200 hands each on Stars today and wound up +$53.75 there for the day, averaging 8.96 BB/100. Then for some reason I got this urge to go waste one of the party skins bonuses. So I signed up for intertops and deposited $200 of my BR onto there. 250 hands later I had cleared my $40 bonus and made an extra $20 at the $1/$2 tables while I was at it. While this was a limited experience I can tell I’m definitely going to enjoy switching over to the party skins when I get up to the $1/$2 games full time, which looks like it may be pretty soon.
Bankroll Update: +$113.75 for a total of $549.34
Oct 30th
So you may be thinking, it’s the weekend and this guy is in college what the hell is he doing playing all this poker? Well for those of you who don’t know Halloween weekend in Wisconsin offers some amazing party opportunities, with a gigantic Halloween celebration taking place in Madison every year. That celebration being tonight there was basically an exodus of the majority of college students in La Crosse to Madison at some point or another this weekend. Why am I still here then sitting behind my computer? Because in my infinite wisdom I chose this weekend to start my goal of remaining sober through our track teams team trials that take place in Late November and December. Thus I’m stuck here with a few other stragglers with not a lot to do.
Today I chose to fill this gap by putting in 1300 hands. This was possibly my worst idea ever due to my current personal status. Let me just say my frustrations definitely leaked into my playing today. I was playing just plain bad, and I was letting bad beats get to me way too much. Also I say in the first sentence that I chose to put in 1300 hands, yes I chose to, but that definitely was not my plan going into the day. I just kept playing and kept getting more and more pissed off. I basically failed one of the first rules of poker, and that is don’t play while you’re mad. Luckily while I was playing there would be blocks of hands where I’d be able to calm myself down and just play good poker, which caused my losses for the day to not be anything major. However, lesson still learned. These sessions had an awesome effect on my PT #s. My VP$IP rose about 2 points, my PFR% went up 1.5 points, and my BB/100 dropped about 1. Although I suppose this should be expected seeing that those 1300 hands make up just under 20% of my entire database.
I may play a session tomorrow morning, but if I’m not feeling good with it that will be it for the day so I’m expecting very few hands tomorrow. Not such a bad thing as I’m supposed to work 12-6 tomorrow anyways.
Bankroll Update: -$6.25 for a total of $543.09
Oct 31st
Yeah I definitely only got 100 hands in today. I managed to squeeze these in early on in the morning. After this I had to work from noon – 6 at the front desk of my res hall. Pretty boring work, but then again I am getting paid to sit at a desk and watch tv or do homework. After this I grabbed a sub from Blimpies and it was off to meet my group for my communications class. I put in a couple hours working on our presentation and then headed back to the hall.
The original plan was to play some poker now, but instead I got side tracked when I heard there was a political debate going on in the basement. Being in the minority on a college campus as a Bush supporter I felt the need to throw some useful commentary in. Side tracking a little I have to say my new enemy is a group going around calling themselves the “Get Out and Vote” campaign. This campaign is on my college campus offering free rides to city hall to go vote early and avoid the “hassles” of voting on election day. My complaint with them is that these rides are in vans plastered with Kerry/Edwards posters. Also, this campaign went all over campus attempting to recruit people to help them “get their fellow students to vote”. Yet never was there any mention that this campaign is backed by the democratic party and is a major supporter of Kerry. This whole thing seems a bit fishy to me and I’d much rather just vote on election day than deal with this type of organization. I’m not sure but this may be the same campaign gonores mentioned being on the UW Madison campus.
Back to poker, I have to say overall I felt much better about my play today. I was able to control my personal stuff much better, and these issues were not the reason I didn’t end up playing many hands today, it was simply that I was just plain busy. Also, I gotta say my two day emotional hiccup is pretty much over. I’ve calmed down a bit, although I still have to say the whole situation somewhat sucks. On the day I was +$7. Sweet!!!! Hopefully I’ll get a few more hands in tomorrow.
Bankroll Update: +$7 for a total of $550.09
P.S. I'll try to remember to include a few hands in the next one.
Oct 29th
Today was an odd day. I had a very good day as far as the poker went, but everything else just added up to a very bad day. Its kinda hard to celebrate a good winning day when the other stuff around you is junk. The first thing is that today was my friend David’s last day here at UW La Crosse. David has recently been diagnosed with a brain tumor and needs to leave so he can get it operated on. The part that makes it even worse is that even after he has his operation, and it turns out to be the successful procedure that I know it will, he won’t be coming back to school here. Losing the closeness of a friend who you saw and hung out with every day is a hard thing, and puts it all in perspective that there are a lot more important things going on in the world that we need to pay attention to.
I have also developed a deep hatred for girls who don’t know what they want. The type of girl who leads you on to the point where you feel really close to her and that shes the one for you, and then she suddenly acts like you don’t exist. That in a nutshell is my problem with a certain girl I had been sort of seeing, but now I don’t have a clue in the world what to think of her.
As I usually get really pissed about this stuff late at night, and I have this thing about not wanting to talk about relationship problems with anyone even remotely close to the situation, Schneids being a fellow late nighter has heard a lot of my whining the last few nights. The other night he gave me possibly one of the best possible pieces of advice as to why I get so frustrated over a situation such as this, and I have to give him credit for it here. He told me that I’m a poker player, and I’m also a very mathematical and overall educated person, so when I arrive at a problem be it in real life or at the poker table I use logic to come up with the best possible move, and in poker there is always that correct move to make that can be found. However, when dealing with girls such as my good friend I spoke of, there is no logic behind what she wants or doesn’t want, and often taking the logical approach will do nothing but completely screw up the situation. This being the way things work messes with the way I think leading to this type of frustration. I’m thinking as much as I complain to him about this stuff, I may have to start hiring him out as my personal therapist.
I ended tonight by watching Big Fish with a friend of mine. I really enjoyed this movie(yeah I just saw it for the first time), but have to admit that for some reason or another some of the stuff in that movie just seemed to remind me of some of the personal junk I have going on and I just wound up ending the night feeling slightly depressed. Ahh well can’t win em all.
Anyways on to the actual poker playing. I played 3 sessions of 200 hands each on Stars today and wound up +$53.75 there for the day, averaging 8.96 BB/100. Then for some reason I got this urge to go waste one of the party skins bonuses. So I signed up for intertops and deposited $200 of my BR onto there. 250 hands later I had cleared my $40 bonus and made an extra $20 at the $1/$2 tables while I was at it. While this was a limited experience I can tell I’m definitely going to enjoy switching over to the party skins when I get up to the $1/$2 games full time, which looks like it may be pretty soon.
Bankroll Update: +$113.75 for a total of $549.34
Oct 30th
So you may be thinking, it’s the weekend and this guy is in college what the hell is he doing playing all this poker? Well for those of you who don’t know Halloween weekend in Wisconsin offers some amazing party opportunities, with a gigantic Halloween celebration taking place in Madison every year. That celebration being tonight there was basically an exodus of the majority of college students in La Crosse to Madison at some point or another this weekend. Why am I still here then sitting behind my computer? Because in my infinite wisdom I chose this weekend to start my goal of remaining sober through our track teams team trials that take place in Late November and December. Thus I’m stuck here with a few other stragglers with not a lot to do.
Today I chose to fill this gap by putting in 1300 hands. This was possibly my worst idea ever due to my current personal status. Let me just say my frustrations definitely leaked into my playing today. I was playing just plain bad, and I was letting bad beats get to me way too much. Also I say in the first sentence that I chose to put in 1300 hands, yes I chose to, but that definitely was not my plan going into the day. I just kept playing and kept getting more and more pissed off. I basically failed one of the first rules of poker, and that is don’t play while you’re mad. Luckily while I was playing there would be blocks of hands where I’d be able to calm myself down and just play good poker, which caused my losses for the day to not be anything major. However, lesson still learned. These sessions had an awesome effect on my PT #s. My VP$IP rose about 2 points, my PFR% went up 1.5 points, and my BB/100 dropped about 1. Although I suppose this should be expected seeing that those 1300 hands make up just under 20% of my entire database.
I may play a session tomorrow morning, but if I’m not feeling good with it that will be it for the day so I’m expecting very few hands tomorrow. Not such a bad thing as I’m supposed to work 12-6 tomorrow anyways.
Bankroll Update: -$6.25 for a total of $543.09
Oct 31st
Yeah I definitely only got 100 hands in today. I managed to squeeze these in early on in the morning. After this I had to work from noon – 6 at the front desk of my res hall. Pretty boring work, but then again I am getting paid to sit at a desk and watch tv or do homework. After this I grabbed a sub from Blimpies and it was off to meet my group for my communications class. I put in a couple hours working on our presentation and then headed back to the hall.
The original plan was to play some poker now, but instead I got side tracked when I heard there was a political debate going on in the basement. Being in the minority on a college campus as a Bush supporter I felt the need to throw some useful commentary in. Side tracking a little I have to say my new enemy is a group going around calling themselves the “Get Out and Vote” campaign. This campaign is on my college campus offering free rides to city hall to go vote early and avoid the “hassles” of voting on election day. My complaint with them is that these rides are in vans plastered with Kerry/Edwards posters. Also, this campaign went all over campus attempting to recruit people to help them “get their fellow students to vote”. Yet never was there any mention that this campaign is backed by the democratic party and is a major supporter of Kerry. This whole thing seems a bit fishy to me and I’d much rather just vote on election day than deal with this type of organization. I’m not sure but this may be the same campaign gonores mentioned being on the UW Madison campus.
Back to poker, I have to say overall I felt much better about my play today. I was able to control my personal stuff much better, and these issues were not the reason I didn’t end up playing many hands today, it was simply that I was just plain busy. Also, I gotta say my two day emotional hiccup is pretty much over. I’ve calmed down a bit, although I still have to say the whole situation somewhat sucks. On the day I was +$7. Sweet!!!! Hopefully I’ll get a few more hands in tomorrow.
Bankroll Update: +$7 for a total of $550.09
P.S. I'll try to remember to include a few hands in the next one.