AleoMagus
08-21-2004, 04:30 AM
400 Posts... yay
now I'm an addict like all those guys who registered on this forum two months ago.
Anyways, that's really not the point of this post and I'm actually feeling pretty sombre writing it. The thing is, I've been pondering some things for days now and this is as good a place as any to share.
I've been running bad lately. Not terribly bad, but not up to what I'd consider my usual expectation. More than this, it has been going on for over 200 sngs now. The crappy part is that a few hundred before that I really was starting to think I had SNGs completely nailed down. I was getting over 40% ROI at the 30+3 over 200 and decided that it was time I stop playing the low limits once and for all. I hit the 50+5 but before I did, I cashed off a significant portion of my winnings to buy a plane ticket for the Canadian Championships in Oct. I also set aside $550 for the buy-in to the main event. Stupid to take money off right when I'm moving up. Still, I had about 30 buy-ins for the $55 game leftover and was confident.
SO I started to run bad. Not terribly bad, but not making anything. After a while I was getting bored and it was starting to get on my nerves.
I should also mention here that I've been writing a lot about sngs on my own lately and it was starting to make me question what I really knew. Not a lot at first, but slowly doubt was creeping in.
I played a lot of multis also because I thought I could use the practice and no placings there either. Bankroll is dwindling.
So I play a couple $109 tourneys one night which don't go well. Tilt and boredom I guess. Wanna hear about the bad beats? I drop back down to $33 SNGs to get focused again
100 tourneys and I'm making a little back, but my ITM is still pretty low. A lot of 1sts and 4ths. No dig deal, except I'm stressing too much about so many busts. I have streaks of 10, 8, and 11 OTM three times in this series. Lots of Ring Limit on the side which is going nowhere
I buy into a few more multis before I give up on that. Maybe the Cdn Championship is not such a good idea... (I don't care what you think about that - I'm playing)
Which brings me to the past couple weeks.
About 100 SNGs - which is WAY more than I ever play in a two week period. All multitabling
NEGATIVE ROI. In top 4, I am finishing 4th lots more than 25%
When finally, I finish 4th 7 times in a row.
Some miserable beats running into big hands and a lot of self induced destruction in the last few. The seventh SNG I have AA and... whatever... you don't care about that. I got 4th
Which brings me to the real point of this post. My Real concern after all this.
I'm normally VERY cool when it comes to losing. I never berate players and I never flinch or hit things or any of that. This time I picked up an empty pop can and I threw it across the room. This felt good
I stood up and I was suddenly filled with a kind of anger I have not felt in YEARS. I picked up my bokken (a hardwood katana I use for Kendo and Aikido) and I swung at the air. I hit the corner of a bookshelf in the room. This also felt good. So I hit it again this time and I meant to.
And so on...
When I was done, I had pulled down the bookshelf, thrown my computer chair across the room and beaten a hole into a nearby table.
It did feel good, but it was scary stuff.
How does one play 2000 sngs with a 30% ROI and suddenly run negative over a couple hundred sngs? Geez, as if it wasn't obvious, this is why I've been a bit preoccupied with these stats lately.
It almost makes it worse when I see these funny posts about bad swings and they are all measured in series of 10 or 20. No offense guys, but you have no idea. Take pride that you have no idea because I'm sure mine was as much self induced as anything. And there were beats...
So where am I at now?
Vacation time. The next time I play poker it will be in Edmonton in Oct for (at least) the Main event and hopefully the Limit event as well.
Besides, I have other things I need to focus on for a while. I spend WAY too much time thinking about this game lately and it shows. The last time I took a while off I came back swinging in a BIG way. Those were different circumstances, but clearly I have a lot to learn about emotional control in this game and the break will do me good. I'm gonna force myself to not look at this forum much either. I waste hours every day here lately.
Lets face it. The fact that I work (actually work, I mean) only two days a week might have something to do with all this. I'm getting stressed again and I should have learned my lesson the first time I tried to make poker a significant source of income.
SIGH
There. If you sat and read all that, I feel embarrased.
But there it is anyways.
My 400th post for which I truly feel like an addict.
Regards
Brad S
now I'm an addict like all those guys who registered on this forum two months ago.
Anyways, that's really not the point of this post and I'm actually feeling pretty sombre writing it. The thing is, I've been pondering some things for days now and this is as good a place as any to share.
I've been running bad lately. Not terribly bad, but not up to what I'd consider my usual expectation. More than this, it has been going on for over 200 sngs now. The crappy part is that a few hundred before that I really was starting to think I had SNGs completely nailed down. I was getting over 40% ROI at the 30+3 over 200 and decided that it was time I stop playing the low limits once and for all. I hit the 50+5 but before I did, I cashed off a significant portion of my winnings to buy a plane ticket for the Canadian Championships in Oct. I also set aside $550 for the buy-in to the main event. Stupid to take money off right when I'm moving up. Still, I had about 30 buy-ins for the $55 game leftover and was confident.
SO I started to run bad. Not terribly bad, but not making anything. After a while I was getting bored and it was starting to get on my nerves.
I should also mention here that I've been writing a lot about sngs on my own lately and it was starting to make me question what I really knew. Not a lot at first, but slowly doubt was creeping in.
I played a lot of multis also because I thought I could use the practice and no placings there either. Bankroll is dwindling.
So I play a couple $109 tourneys one night which don't go well. Tilt and boredom I guess. Wanna hear about the bad beats? I drop back down to $33 SNGs to get focused again
100 tourneys and I'm making a little back, but my ITM is still pretty low. A lot of 1sts and 4ths. No dig deal, except I'm stressing too much about so many busts. I have streaks of 10, 8, and 11 OTM three times in this series. Lots of Ring Limit on the side which is going nowhere
I buy into a few more multis before I give up on that. Maybe the Cdn Championship is not such a good idea... (I don't care what you think about that - I'm playing)
Which brings me to the past couple weeks.
About 100 SNGs - which is WAY more than I ever play in a two week period. All multitabling
NEGATIVE ROI. In top 4, I am finishing 4th lots more than 25%
When finally, I finish 4th 7 times in a row.
Some miserable beats running into big hands and a lot of self induced destruction in the last few. The seventh SNG I have AA and... whatever... you don't care about that. I got 4th
Which brings me to the real point of this post. My Real concern after all this.
I'm normally VERY cool when it comes to losing. I never berate players and I never flinch or hit things or any of that. This time I picked up an empty pop can and I threw it across the room. This felt good
I stood up and I was suddenly filled with a kind of anger I have not felt in YEARS. I picked up my bokken (a hardwood katana I use for Kendo and Aikido) and I swung at the air. I hit the corner of a bookshelf in the room. This also felt good. So I hit it again this time and I meant to.
And so on...
When I was done, I had pulled down the bookshelf, thrown my computer chair across the room and beaten a hole into a nearby table.
It did feel good, but it was scary stuff.
How does one play 2000 sngs with a 30% ROI and suddenly run negative over a couple hundred sngs? Geez, as if it wasn't obvious, this is why I've been a bit preoccupied with these stats lately.
It almost makes it worse when I see these funny posts about bad swings and they are all measured in series of 10 or 20. No offense guys, but you have no idea. Take pride that you have no idea because I'm sure mine was as much self induced as anything. And there were beats...
So where am I at now?
Vacation time. The next time I play poker it will be in Edmonton in Oct for (at least) the Main event and hopefully the Limit event as well.
Besides, I have other things I need to focus on for a while. I spend WAY too much time thinking about this game lately and it shows. The last time I took a while off I came back swinging in a BIG way. Those were different circumstances, but clearly I have a lot to learn about emotional control in this game and the break will do me good. I'm gonna force myself to not look at this forum much either. I waste hours every day here lately.
Lets face it. The fact that I work (actually work, I mean) only two days a week might have something to do with all this. I'm getting stressed again and I should have learned my lesson the first time I tried to make poker a significant source of income.
SIGH
There. If you sat and read all that, I feel embarrased.
But there it is anyways.
My 400th post for which I truly feel like an addict.
Regards
Brad S