storm
07-10-2004, 04:53 PM
Hello all,
Recently I experienced a moment in an Omaha tournament that made me question whether my poker psyche had been previously damaged. I will spare you all the details of the hand and just say I got my all chips in the pot for the 1'st time in 80 grueling hands of which only 1 was able to bring me a pot. I was in great shape before and after the flop he had only 2 outs short of a runner runner. It is this moment I realize something is wrong with my poker psyche. I should be very comfortable at this moment so why am I expecting him to hit?
I have been very successful at poker for most of the last 18 months. Two months ago or so some personal things came up in my life that affected my ability to focus on poker in the same way I had been. I continued to play on with an unfocused mind and paid the price with a net loss to my bank roll after a month of playing at less then 100%.
Soon the smoke cleared in the personal section of my life and the focus returned to my game. I should be back on track and recovering my previous months short fall. I continue playing my best game in many tourneys I am fighting for a couple hours and falling out near the bubble. Some barley on the pay side of the bubble and some not. Time after time in these bubble situations I am getting my chips in when I am heavily favored and having my opponent outdraw me an unusual amount of times. I don't mean someone drawing at 10 or more outs these have been 4 to 6 outers with 2 or less cards to come.
Back to the moment I realized I may have a damaged psyche. Like I said in the time it takes for Poker Stars to lay down the turn card I had several thoughts cross my mind. Most of those thoughts should be positive in this situation after all I am a huge favorite. Why are my thoughts seeming to expect an out draw? Worse yet as I try to regain control of my wandering thoughts the turn card appears. Yes a set of Kings for my opponent. In one second as I contemplate weather I am experiencing a larger physiological issue with my game and boom another damaging blow. I had a few more then 1800 chips at the start of the hand and that card would nullify an hour and a half of energy I had put into this game. Worse then that it left me wondering if my subconscious has been damaged.
Anyone with any thoughts as to weather damage to your subconscious can affect your over all ability to play your best game? Have I just taken a whole lot of time to come to the conclusion I am on tilt? I hope these and many more exiting questions will be answered when you post you reply.
Recently I experienced a moment in an Omaha tournament that made me question whether my poker psyche had been previously damaged. I will spare you all the details of the hand and just say I got my all chips in the pot for the 1'st time in 80 grueling hands of which only 1 was able to bring me a pot. I was in great shape before and after the flop he had only 2 outs short of a runner runner. It is this moment I realize something is wrong with my poker psyche. I should be very comfortable at this moment so why am I expecting him to hit?
I have been very successful at poker for most of the last 18 months. Two months ago or so some personal things came up in my life that affected my ability to focus on poker in the same way I had been. I continued to play on with an unfocused mind and paid the price with a net loss to my bank roll after a month of playing at less then 100%.
Soon the smoke cleared in the personal section of my life and the focus returned to my game. I should be back on track and recovering my previous months short fall. I continue playing my best game in many tourneys I am fighting for a couple hours and falling out near the bubble. Some barley on the pay side of the bubble and some not. Time after time in these bubble situations I am getting my chips in when I am heavily favored and having my opponent outdraw me an unusual amount of times. I don't mean someone drawing at 10 or more outs these have been 4 to 6 outers with 2 or less cards to come.
Back to the moment I realized I may have a damaged psyche. Like I said in the time it takes for Poker Stars to lay down the turn card I had several thoughts cross my mind. Most of those thoughts should be positive in this situation after all I am a huge favorite. Why are my thoughts seeming to expect an out draw? Worse yet as I try to regain control of my wandering thoughts the turn card appears. Yes a set of Kings for my opponent. In one second as I contemplate weather I am experiencing a larger physiological issue with my game and boom another damaging blow. I had a few more then 1800 chips at the start of the hand and that card would nullify an hour and a half of energy I had put into this game. Worse then that it left me wondering if my subconscious has been damaged.
Anyone with any thoughts as to weather damage to your subconscious can affect your over all ability to play your best game? Have I just taken a whole lot of time to come to the conclusion I am on tilt? I hope these and many more exiting questions will be answered when you post you reply.